Wednesday, December 31, 2008

One Time...

There was a time I walked through the woods of Walden Pond and felt like I could never understand Henry David Thoreau. The reasons why I once felt so are now the reasons why I begin to see his logic. Destitute and disgusted, Thoreau imagines a world in which the eventual loss of innocence is inevitable. No one can stay innocent, this world will not allow it. And just as Thoreau, everyone needs to become a part of the system sometime, you can only run away from it for so long. Without a hate there is no love, without a love there is no hate. Thoreau acknowledges the counterparts each play on one another and their importance to the establishing of one. This is the world we live in. This is a real worldview. There is no black, there is no white. Everything's eventual, Thoreau just saw it sooner than most.

"Indeed, Indeed, I Cannot Tell"

Henry David Thoreau

Indeed, indeed, I cannot tell,
Though I ponder on it well,
Which were easier to state,
All my love or all my hate.
Surely, surely, thou wilt trust me
When I say thou dost disgust me.
O, I hate thee with a hate
That would fain annihilate;
Yet sometimes against my will,
My dear friend, I love thee still.
It were treason to our love,
And a sin to God above,
One iota to abate
Of a pure impartial hate.

Monday, December 29, 2008

Musing...

Life is an endless search for that cold spot in bed, that lover's look into your eyes, and the disappointment of finding neither.
-M.R.

Sunday, December 28, 2008

What I've Been Watching...


Billy Bragg
"Waiting for the Great Leap Forwards"




Milk
Directed by: Gus Van Sant




A Very Long Engagement
Directed by: Jean-Pierre Jeunet




Surfwise
Documentary by: Mr. Pray
(http://www.surfwisefilm.com/)

Saturday, December 27, 2008

Artist Spotlight...

Hailing from Sommerville, MA, artist Begley is a tee-shirt and print designer for a handful of bands you may have seen or heard before. You can purchase his work from Shirts & Destroy (http://shirtsanddestroy.com) and check out more of his work on his Myspace page (myspace.com/thehorseisdead).








(More prints available via links provided above.)

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

My Grandmother and Me...

And Noted To My Grandmother, Much Greater Than Me
by M. R. Brown


"The breeze that
crossed
his face held in it
the locket of
his father
and
the memories
of his
grandmother"


She promised
me
ribbons to
flow from
her hair.

The street ran
out and to
the ocean
where simple sands and
laughing
children were
all that
were left
of the summer past.

On the bed
where her grandson slept,
now she too
would lay
her head.

And as she
past from here,
she left
to me the breeze
that casts
from off the shores
and
off the crests of
each wave
that brings,
in moments,
her back to
me.

"As words would slip from off her lips he swore never to fall for such devices. The standing lamp of three lights was missing one bulb, and never again was the room adequately lit."

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

In The End, Everything Mattered....

["Don't disappear" she said to him. "Will you never as well? Please" he said imagining his eyes cast on hers. "I won't. I promise" she said. He knew the way things were and he ceased to acknowledge them as such. Her ring shone gold to his eyes, still.]

Sunday, December 21, 2008

Act 1. Scene 1...

“And as the snow fell he felt little more freedom than the buried blades of grass above him.
He shone green in a world of white.”

by M. R. Brown














ACT 1

Scene 1: Two twenty-something year old men lay in the snow, side by side. Clad in black jackets and scarves with red hats. Both men place their hands beside themselves. They stare at the sky and witness the branches of the trees surrounding them tear across the screen. The world opens up and everything once stopped begins to move around them. Each boy is missing one thing. And there they lay. Still. Searching. Green lights are flashing.

Man 1: “All the world is a quiet place and no one seems to listen.

Man 2: If it’s any consolation, I don’t think I can either.

Man 1: We’ve grown attune to feeling safe in sounds around us.

Man 2: The “white noise” it’s called.

Man 1: Sounds are

Man 2: -without answer. It provides the same solace.

Man 1: Every night is passed in every household with a continuously reverberating hum.

Man 2: The world is endless without social interaction. I see it there, where the lines are bent.

Man 1: Imagine a city bereft of sound.

[One second passes between them. Man 1 can not stop it and Man 2 neglects to try]

Man 2: A tingle should spark your finger.

[The two men turn their heads left]

Man 1: I can find sounds in a flashing streetlight as though they were proclamations of an old bible. The cover is tattered, though.

Man 2: The light flashes red in intermittent sessions.

Man 1: I have found silence. I have found it between flakes of snow, in a frozen breath. I have found it in the bed covers of loved ones and the gazing eyes of enemies.

Man 2: The only sound unique enough to never be reproduced

Man 1: -is silence”

[One second passes between them. Man 2 stops it]

Man 1: "Never wake me.

Man2: I’ll wake you when we reach the end.

Man 1: When there is a skyline left burning and the wind to blow it our way?

Man 2: I’ll wake you when there is a last train, empty and burned black. I’ll wake you when the spirit leaves our bodies. I’ll wake you in lucid dreams, my friend.

Man 1: All the world

Man 2: -is a much colored green"

[And as the snow fell he felt little more freedom than the buried blades of grass above him. He shone green in a world of white.]

Saturday, December 20, 2008

On A Winter Morning...

As it snows outside I think now is a great time to reflect upon the new thing in my life that I hold very dear: my mustache. The best way to hear mustache jokes is to start growing one. Add a soul-patch and you're certifiably a 70's and 90's porn star in one! I started growing it in celebration of my upcoming road trip. Photos will ensue.

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

What I Did With My Tuesday...


Hunter S. Thompson

From making the stencil for the picture and letters to the final spray-paint took about 5 hours. There's two. One resides in my room while the other resides in Mr. Matthew Winske's lovely new trailer.

What I've Been Watching..



Legend
Directed by Ridley Scott
Starring Tom Cruise





Straw Dogs
Directed by Sam Peckinpah
Starring Dustin "The Real Hoff" Hoffman





Artist: The Replacements
Song: "Bastards of Young"

Sunday, December 14, 2008

So There I Was...


After the World
by M.R. Brown

Think fast. React with grace.

Pushing tricycles in the sand under a red moon. And I'm stalled, oddly.

Bricks are piled on pavement.
Bricks are laden with cracks.
Bricks will build a shelter.

Starshine.

The 20th century. In manuscript form.

Farther past this stream is the ice of lore.
Where glass no longer shatters/
And pages no longer spell out words.

All the world is a muck-colored green.

Sunday, December 7, 2008

Anger Is An Energy...

Sometimes I'll make decisions without knowing why. Sometimes I'll charge blindly into things and come out only to have my head looking back. I question the reasons, I question the motives. I question the truth. And I'm happy, inexplicably happy but I know its destined to fail. That is the worst feeling, to know something is only going to fail. How do you face something like that?


This is not a love song
Happy to have, not to have not

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

In The Grey Scales...



















(photo by A. Caras)

These Things Breed Perpetual Losses...



A Stream of Thought on a Wednesday Morning in Bed
by M. R. Brown

I need out out of
my head.
Paper has lost its
color
and the sunlight is more
an imagination
than a ruse.
Pass from me this
endless dawn
and
break apart these bonds.
The cuffs that lock
my wrists
are
tighter with every
second.
The day passes as
though looking
through
shrouded tree
tops
to find
the falling light.
Alone I sit in the
last train.

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

The Final Countdown...

TOP TEN COVER SONGS BETTER THAN THEIR ORIGINAL
by M. R. Brown

• Jimmy Hendrix – All Along the Watchtower
(Bob Dylan)
- Very few will argue that this is hands down the best cover of all time. Jimmy Hendrix flat-out beat Bob Dylan. Few have done it, and none of done it more convincingly. Even Dylan now plays the song live in the fashion of Hendrix’s version.

• Johnny Cash – Hurt
(Nine Inch Nails)
- Among the final recordings of Johnny Cash, the Nine Inch Nails cover is infused with a voice searching for redemption and couldn’t be closer to Cash’s life. It takes decades to being in music to even come close to pulling off a cover like this.

• Joe Strummer – Redemption Song
(Bob Marley)
- There is a pain and longing in Joe Strummer’s voice that made The Clash important and forever relevant. It doesn’t stop here.

• Bruce Springsteen – Jersey Girl
(Tom Waits)
- To hear The Boss cover a song about his hometown, and to have that song be written by Tom Waits, is so damn touching. Beautiful song, beautiful man.

• The Gaylettes – Son Of A Preacher Man
(Dusty Springfield)
- Turning “Son Of A Preacher Man” into a ska-fueled reggae tune transforms the song and captures it in an even more poignant light than Dusty Springfield could. The Gaylettes version would also grace my Songs In My Heaven playlist.

• Run DMC – Walk This Way
(Aerosmith)
- Let’s face it, Aerosmith’s “Walk This Way” was, other than horrible, clearly lacking something, listen-ability. Praise Run DMC for taking this song to a progressive level of interest.

• The Killers – Shadowplay
(Joy Division)
- The sons of the bright lights of Vegas are the only band around that can pull off a Joy Division cover, and it was a smart choice to play Shadowplay rather than Love Will Tear Us Apart. A heads-up move.

• Tom Waits – The Return of Jackie and Judy
(The Ramones)
- Always the innovator, Tom Waits capitalizes on what makes a cover song special, re-imagining a song rather than re-iterating a song. He takes the spirit of The Ramones and re-imagines “Judy Is A Punk.”

• The White Stripes – Jolene
(Dolly Parton)
- Jack White gets a chance to bask in his country and blues musical inspirations. And thank god someone can make Dolly Parton worth a listen.

• Cock Sparrer – White Riot
(The Clash)
- Fellow Brits Cock Sparrer managed to capture the angst and aggression that The Clash couldn’t even capture, seemingly. For that, they make my list.

Honorable Mention: Jeff Buckley – Halleluiah
(Leonard Cohen)
- Jeff Buckley’s version is great, it’s sharp and it’s relative, but Leonard Cohen’s original is just a wee bit better. For that, Buckley is left with the Honorable shaft.